the pain is neverending.

blah, so yesterday was very very very ugly. & i emphasize on the very. ugh, will the hurt ever end? like no joke. first, drama drama with evan & now that i put alot of it behind me, & im beginning to move forward with my life, all this other bullshit is gonna come around. ugh, im so irritated & i just don't care anymore.

my life is screwing up & im trying my best to put it all back together. i refuse to let my family fall apart, i absolutely refuse. i miss my past, i miss evan, i miss how things used to be. i don't regret anything, however i wish i could turn back time & not take things for granted. but i know that this is God's plan for me, & im leaving it all in his hands. i truly believe that he'll make things better for me, & i have to stay strong for this time being.

i pray that i can gather up all the strength i have to become stronger for myself & for my family. my goals are firmly implanted in my head, & im mosdef going to achieve them. this is my life, & i won't let stupid things ruin it for me. i know whats best for me, & no one can stop me :)