Patiently waiting...

so today started off ugly as usual. oh maan, got to drive the car again. got to school & met up w/ lexy & sammy. checked out oni's new phone, it was doooope! verizon really got the dopest phones i've ever seen, lols. im so jealous, cos t-mobile is hella whaaack with it, haha. walked to government w/ lexy. gaahdamn, the stairs killed us, lols.

had a dumb test in forensics -__- so ugly! i think i did good on the test portion, but not on the essays. oh maan, i wish i woulda studied more! grrr, procrastination hella bit me in the ass again. then went to english, finished the rest of hamlet. hella funny ending! haha, errrbody died, poor thing, lols.

i was abouta go home, & saw the cutie patootie in the hallway. gave the usual 'hi' & hug. i hella wish i could just grab him & kiss him. shuuucks, shit sucks. hung out at lunch for the first time in fooorever. hella sausage fest at the table now, lols. i played with everyones phones tho, pretty dope.

drove home, hella boring. but driving is pretty fun when there's barely anybody on the road tryna piss you off, lols. took a nap & uncle woke me up to feed me. that man cannot let me say no to food! haha, i needa fucking lose weight too! golly, i needa stop with the eating, lols.

& to end the day off, got into another argument w/ the cute one. maaan, i hate it. i'm still waiting, but it gets harder everyday! i'm not giving up until he does, & by the looks of it, it's like he wants to :( man, i need ALOT of comforting in class tomorrow, lols. i fucking hate you hoe. i hella do. man, i just want him back. im still praying. trust me, if you guys were in my shoes, you'd understand why. i love him so much, & this hurts so bad. he just wants to be 'friends' for now. ah, another day waiting ever so patiently. i hope i don't lose in the end, cos my biggest fear has already came true :( can i get a miracle please?

to get what i want i have to work hard for it.
peace easy <3

March 5, 2008 - i love you, & i hope in the end it's just me & you<3