Timeless.

ahhh, so today was pretty whack. everyday gets harder to manage. ohmaaaan, i tell ya'.

so pretty much, i stayed home all day. woke up hella early, around 7-ish. uncle jon wanted me to help make him coffee. then fell right back to sleep, & woke up at 12. ugh, waking up is so hard knowing the situation im in. i cry myself to sleep at night, then wake up the next day feeling like shiiit. this is so hard, i really am trying my best to push thru it, but im not fooling myself. everyday, i carry on, pretending i am just fine. but everyday, i have my breaking point, where i just run to my room, lock the door, & cry.

i feel so sick. i dont wanna eat. it takes me forever to fall asleep. man, i just wish this was all over. i just want him back in my arms. i don't wanna just be his friend. but its much greater than that. i miss being in love, i miss him. everyday, every second.

March 5, 2008 - i will not give up on us. we will make it<3