haha, bigego.
mhm, tired as fuck. supeeeer sick.
i want to get outta this house.
but i can't? ugh.
i need major rest.
looking forward to a fresh week,
& this weekend.
keeping busy, staying busy.
the way i like it [:
breaking the silence,
but keeping the peace.
ya' feeeel me?
tired of the kiddy shit.
im growing up, & get the fuck outta my way.
keep up with me.
Friday, February 27, 2009
Thursday, February 26, 2009
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
makes no sense.
but i definitely needed that.
finally, the closure i've been longing for [:
the final slap in the face,
& now, im greeeeeat!
no excuses anymore.
taking responsibility for my own actions.
my skin just got a little bit thicker.
mhm, enjoy your life darlings!
seriously. stop wasting time on bullshit.
wake up each day smiling, no matter what the circumstance.
be happy, stay happy.
i've wasted too much time on this dilemma.
& i've seen / felt the unimaginable.
looking where i am now,
i'm living proof that we don't know where life will take us.
staying classy, loving every moment.
good, bad, whatever.
I RISE ABOVE [:
& i ain't looking down,
but i see no one above me.
- laaaates. [mellissjoy]
finally, the closure i've been longing for [:
the final slap in the face,
& now, im greeeeeat!
no excuses anymore.
taking responsibility for my own actions.
my skin just got a little bit thicker.
mhm, enjoy your life darlings!
seriously. stop wasting time on bullshit.
wake up each day smiling, no matter what the circumstance.
be happy, stay happy.
i've wasted too much time on this dilemma.
& i've seen / felt the unimaginable.
looking where i am now,
i'm living proof that we don't know where life will take us.
staying classy, loving every moment.
good, bad, whatever.
I RISE ABOVE [:
& i ain't looking down,
but i see no one above me.
- laaaates. [mellissjoy]
Sunday, February 22, 2009
life
is fucking greeeeeat [:
learn to appreciate the finer things in your life,
cos the best feeling in the world is to fall asleep smiling [:
- mellissa joy
mhm! throat is killing me, but my loves make my feel muuuch better. i wanna knock out, but homework to finish.
ugh, buuusy as hell.
but i like it [;
learn to appreciate the finer things in your life,
cos the best feeling in the world is to fall asleep smiling [:
- mellissa joy
mhm! throat is killing me, but my loves make my feel muuuch better. i wanna knock out, but homework to finish.
ugh, buuusy as hell.
but i like it [;
Sunday, February 8, 2009
relapse.
im sooo tired. & i never update this as much anymore! haha. i remember when i used to just rush my ass home just so i could vent out my feelings on this suckaa, buhaha. currently watching holes & doing my laundry. thank goodness! i've been running low on clothes, lol. & my uniform needed to be washed, pronto! sundays are boring, but very productive. planning on cleaning my room, since i got distracted yesterday when i was supposed to clean it. i needa finish some homework aswell, been kindaa lagging in that department.
hopefully i get paid this week! i really wanna get my car up & running again. sharing cars with my mommy sucks, especially when i always have to give it back by like 3, lol. all i need is a new battery & get back my license plates & im gooood to go! so give me a month or two, i'll be riding my baby back in no time [:
mhm, i work on tuesday & thursday this week. my manager is starting to give me more hours! thaaank goodness [: he needs to start letting me & angee work together, cos we can get shit done! haha. tomorrows an odd day, yaaay! i began to love odd days again. ignore the fact that i dreaded it for months, but now shit dont even phase me anymore. yaaay, good for me, lol.
& golllly! im fat dude. i needa loose weight for prom. & ms. angee is gonna make my dress for me! holllllla, gonna be wearing an orignal. uhm, ill update again later. i gotta hang my clothes & take a quick nap.
laaaates.
hopefully i get paid this week! i really wanna get my car up & running again. sharing cars with my mommy sucks, especially when i always have to give it back by like 3, lol. all i need is a new battery & get back my license plates & im gooood to go! so give me a month or two, i'll be riding my baby back in no time [:
mhm, i work on tuesday & thursday this week. my manager is starting to give me more hours! thaaank goodness [: he needs to start letting me & angee work together, cos we can get shit done! haha. tomorrows an odd day, yaaay! i began to love odd days again. ignore the fact that i dreaded it for months, but now shit dont even phase me anymore. yaaay, good for me, lol.
& golllly! im fat dude. i needa loose weight for prom. & ms. angee is gonna make my dress for me! holllllla, gonna be wearing an orignal. uhm, ill update again later. i gotta hang my clothes & take a quick nap.
laaaates.
Sunday, February 1, 2009
it is what it is.
woaah, so haven't updated this thing in forevaaa. so, this weekend was pretty crazy, haven't experienced overwhelming emotions in awhile.
hm, things shure have changed now that its been a whole three months later. i've grown up & seen things in a different perspective. i've been smiling a whole lot more & making things right with myself. however, it takes one bad moment to let my past come & bite me in my ass. someone who i never thought would hurt me so bad, did & it hurt like fucking hell. & its truly unbelieveable. people change, i understand that. but to completely push me away & now all this? geeeeeez. i know it wasn't exactly you who did it, but it hurt so fucking bad, really bad. i thought you would always have my back...
my heart has experienced way too much torment, more than it should be able to handle. God wants me to be happy, but he keeps testing me! shooot, i take five steps forward & bullshit knocks me three steps back. un-fucking-believable. i watch myself grow more & more everyday, & i try so hard to let my past not get to me.
ugh, its crazy how quickly someone can break their promise, making me feel inferior to what i thought was real. like really, was i that gullible to believe ANYTHING? what the fuck am i suppose to feel now. i've been disrespected, hurt, fucked over, & i get nothing. I DONT FUCKING DESERVE THE BULLSHIT.
i've kept to myself, stayed behind my own lines, & stuck to my priorites. & yet i get dragged back into a situation that i dont belong in. all i can really do now is push forward, & prepare for another slap in the face.
it is what it is. people change, & i can finally accept that. 'sorry' just doesn't cut it anymore. promises mean nothing these days, & i gotta accept that too. i trust no one [except chosen few] & my walls are up. fuck letting anyone in anymore. prepare for battle, cos its gonna take a helluva lot to knock these walls down.
done.
hm, things shure have changed now that its been a whole three months later. i've grown up & seen things in a different perspective. i've been smiling a whole lot more & making things right with myself. however, it takes one bad moment to let my past come & bite me in my ass. someone who i never thought would hurt me so bad, did & it hurt like fucking hell. & its truly unbelieveable. people change, i understand that. but to completely push me away & now all this? geeeeeez. i know it wasn't exactly you who did it, but it hurt so fucking bad, really bad. i thought you would always have my back...
my heart has experienced way too much torment, more than it should be able to handle. God wants me to be happy, but he keeps testing me! shooot, i take five steps forward & bullshit knocks me three steps back. un-fucking-believable. i watch myself grow more & more everyday, & i try so hard to let my past not get to me.
ugh, its crazy how quickly someone can break their promise, making me feel inferior to what i thought was real. like really, was i that gullible to believe ANYTHING? what the fuck am i suppose to feel now. i've been disrespected, hurt, fucked over, & i get nothing. I DONT FUCKING DESERVE THE BULLSHIT.
i've kept to myself, stayed behind my own lines, & stuck to my priorites. & yet i get dragged back into a situation that i dont belong in. all i can really do now is push forward, & prepare for another slap in the face.
it is what it is. people change, & i can finally accept that. 'sorry' just doesn't cut it anymore. promises mean nothing these days, & i gotta accept that too. i trust no one [except chosen few] & my walls are up. fuck letting anyone in anymore. prepare for battle, cos its gonna take a helluva lot to knock these walls down.
done.
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