first blog of two-thousand&nine.

oh-em-geeeeeee. it is FINALLY 2009.

ever since i moved out here in vegas, i always asked myself 'when the fuck am i gonna graduate?' haha! & now its finally here. oh gosh, im so scared, yet extremely excited for what awaits me in my future. i have never felt so happy in my life.

i finally feel happy for what i have & it took me awhile to truly see whats been put in front of me. i have no idea why i was so blind to so many things in life. i have the most amazing people in my life, & for those who walked out on me, your loss. i can already tell that 2009 will be my year, & ima make the most of it. it's stressful cos i have college to worry about & actually getting my first real job, but i know ima be just fine. im finally growing up, & ima definitely show it. i've been misunderstood for awhile & ima prove to those who doubt me to never underestimate me.

wooooow. i just am completely shocked that im actually growing up. it finally hit me. lol.

mhm, as long as i keep going at this steady pace, keep having fun, not associate myself with immature bullshit/drama, ill be fine :)

im currently single & for the first time im very happy with it :) i know now that im not ready to be held down until i find someone who can ride for me, no matter what. im reallly young & i have alot of time to find mr. right. as for now, ima focus on me & make shure i commit to myself first. if theres a guy out there who thinks he can handle me, feel free to try ;) hah, jk.

real talk tho, mellissa joy is growing up. & ya'll won't stop me from living my life.

<3

P.S. wife i hellllla missed you too! :) man, i love you! thank yoou for spending the new year with me<3